I end up at Home Depot.
I know not why I do this. But it seems to be a pattern. For years, when the weather ends up being warm for about 2 weeks, signaling to my inner self that Spring really is here, I end up in the Garden section of the Home Depot.
Today was that day.
I looked and touched everything. I looked at trees, shrubs, flowers, mulch, soil, retaining walls, pavers, fountains, yard decor, picnic tables, cushions, flower bed edging, bamboo bundles (You can use them to cover up chainlinked fences! They are 6 feet tall! They not only cover the yucky chainlink fence, but hide the view of the neighbors gross yards! And they come 16 feet long... all for about $16 a bundle!)
I got a bit of a sunburn, I was outside for so long!
I purchased NOTHING.
I am shocked.
And Proud of myself!
There is so much I want to do with this house. But frankly, as much as the warm weather makes me want to do things outside, I have some things I need to take care of in the INSIDE first.
Like replacing all the broken doors.
Doing something with the bathroom.
Carpets that are 20 years old really do need to go.
And before I can get to any of that, I need to get rid of this debt.
I'm not going to lie, I am throwing a temper tantrum to myself. My inner child is not liking this "You can't buy pretty shrubs, flowers, and bamboo bundles because you racked up credit card debt and now you need to pay it off!"
Plus, I try to tell my inner child, you may be moving within the next 6 months. Why invest all that work and money into something that you aren't even going to enjoy for that long?
My inner child is a brat and says "CAUSE I WANNA! CAUSE I WILL ENJOY IT FOR A LITTLE BIT! BECAUSE BECAUSE BECAUSE!"
Ultimately, I have placed my inner child in time out. Since time out gurus suggest one minute for each year of age, she is in time out for 30 minutes right now. In the meantime, the grown up me is enjoying the sun shining on my face and the smell of the cedar mulch that I *do* have.
Maybe I will get myself a mint julip as well. Nothing beats a mint Julip when you are basically arguing with yourself.
In front of people.